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I thought of this topic after reading Stogie's thread about "What makes you so special"...
There are some things that colour my daily life precisely because they are such sources of shame.
For me, I am most ashamed that I was once divorced.
We had dated and got engaged during school and married right after graduation. We had had some issues prior to the wedding, and another big warning sign was that we matched for jobs in different places, so we knew we would not be together for at least a year after getting married.
It can be hard not to keep throwing good money after bad, and I really did not want it to fail. So when she asked for a divorce one short month after we got married, by phone, I felt like such an incredible failure, and my confidence at the time took a terrible beating.
In a sense we were never really married, but it still is very shameful thing for me.
Sometimes I wish I could just dive into the water and be washed completely clean of shame, so as to never think about it again.
I don't really expect too many people to volunteer much, but I wonder if it is ever possible to completely forget a shameful memory, or does it always have value because of the lessons it carries?
There are some things that colour my daily life precisely because they are such sources of shame.
For me, I am most ashamed that I was once divorced.
We had dated and got engaged during school and married right after graduation. We had had some issues prior to the wedding, and another big warning sign was that we matched for jobs in different places, so we knew we would not be together for at least a year after getting married.
It can be hard not to keep throwing good money after bad, and I really did not want it to fail. So when she asked for a divorce one short month after we got married, by phone, I felt like such an incredible failure, and my confidence at the time took a terrible beating.
In a sense we were never really married, but it still is very shameful thing for me.
Sometimes I wish I could just dive into the water and be washed completely clean of shame, so as to never think about it again.
I don't really expect too many people to volunteer much, but I wonder if it is ever possible to completely forget a shameful memory, or does it always have value because of the lessons it carries?
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That is jut awful Naang.You should never be ashamed to tell anyone you are a Liverpool fan!
I am ashamed of having constantly cheated on my first wife, with boths gg's and lb's, which lead to divorce.
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