Any advice ??

[Adoniskorran]

Sup short time lurker here !


I’m hoping to get some honest perspective from guys who’ve been down this road longer than I have.




I’m in my late 20s and recently ended a relationship with a woman I genuinely cared about. One of the main reasons is that I’ve struggled for years with attraction to trans women / ladyboys and never really allowed myself to explore it openly or honestly.




What I’m trying to understand and what honestly scares me is the longterm outcome of different choices.




If I had stayed, I worry I would eventually end up suppressing this part of myself, becoming resentful or depressed, or worse acting on it quietly behind her back and putting her at risk. I don’t want to be the guy who wakes up at 45 or 50 realizing he lived a double life or wasted years pretending everything was fine.




At the same time, walking away from someone good isn’t easy either.




So I wanted to ask those of you with more life experience:




• Did you stay in long-term relationships or marriages and try to suppress these urges? How did that turn out over time?

• Did you leave earlier in life to explore freely? Was it worth it?

• Did anyone try to balance both, and what was the real cost?




I’m especially interested in how you feel looking back now. Peace, regret, acceptance all of it.




I’m not looking for encouragement in any particular direction, just honest lived experience so I can make a decision I won’t regret later.




Thanks to anyone willing to share.


Also sorry if I posted this in the wrong spot of if it was discussed before.

[Escierto]

I will tell you my story which may or may not help you but here it is anyway.


I had two long marriages which had their ups and downs but gave me seven children and many grandchildren. I love children in general and my offspring are truly the light of my life.

When I was about 55, I was bored and chatting on a now defunct web site that let people chat on cam with whoever looked interesting to them. I started chatting with a very pretty young woman and over the months, we developed an ongoing chat relationship.

One day she was upset because she said she had lied to me. This confused me because so far as I knew she had always been honest with me. Finally after a lot of back and forth between us, she told me that she was not a real girl. I could not believe it and I told her so. Then she showed me her dick and as they say, this caused my head to explode.

I was shocked to see such a pretty young woman with a cock but I was even more shocked at my reaction: I wanted her and I wanted what she had.
I was never more sure of anything in my life but it was very hard for me to accept. For the next decade I struggled with the desires that she had awakened in me. It took that long before I finally decided to act on my desires.

I arranged to spend a week in Hong Kong with a Filipina ladyboy I met online. She had a strong libido and we had an incredible amount of sex during our week together. For me, it was the best sex of my life and although our relationship did not continue, I vowed to find a compatible ladyboy with whom I could have a complete relationship.

For the past six years I have been in a relationship with a beautiful Filipina ladyboy. I see her a couple of times a year for long visits and when we are not together we chat every day on cam, usually for a couple of hours but frequently as long as five or six hours. We never miss a day together.

She is a very feminine woman with a small body and a female voice and mannerisms. She says that she wore female clothes with her hair long from the earliest time she can remember. When I am with her, I actually forget what is between her legs. Of course privately we share what makes her the very special kind of woman that she is.

My family knows about her and several of them have chatted with her on cam as well. She never wants to leave the Philippines and I don't blame her. She is treated respectfully as a woman by everyone there and we never have any problems being accepted as a couple. Next year I plan to spend a lot more time with her and hopefully we can continue being happy together for many more years.