Giving it all up?

[kahuna]

You're not alone SW...

I just returned from a short visit home for another 3+ month visit to Pattaya...I couldn't wait to return...

My first evening back I met a fellow BM and we went off to my favorite Sunee bar for a couple drinks and then wandered down to EZY Bar for a visit...I called my regular ladyboy and she met me there and we had a drink and went off into the night...We met again the next evening...Two great nights with a ladyboy I truly like to be with...I think perhaps full-time...I thought perhaps full-time...

Last night I didn't want to see her...I wanted to spend the evening alone...So bad man that I am, I ignored her calls and messages...I returned to my favorite Sunee bar and chatted a bit with the owner and lovely femman bar keep...And drank perhaps a bit too much...I returned to EZY Bar...Between the booze and one ladyboy's charm I broke my promise to myself and paid a barfine...

She is sleeping in my bed as I type...I don't even know her name...Aside from the fact that she is cute and sexy and a bit ting tong, I don't know anything about her...

And most importantly I'm thinking, aside from her name and where she is from in Thailand, I don't know anything about my regular ladyboy either...The one who I profess to like too much...Nothing...Nada, zilch, zip...

And therein lies my problem...Intimacy with a complete stranger...

So for now I will simply follow my tried and true routine...Fall in love in the evening and fall out of love in the morning...That is I suppose until I can no longer fall in love in the evening...

And I look at my bed where I don't know her name sleeps and I think how ugly she is...But she isn't...She is every bit as cute as she was in the bar last night...But damn, I wish she would wake up and leave...

[Juri]

(kahuna @ Apr. 07 2010,05:10) You're not alone SW...

My first evening back I met a fellow BM and we went off to my favorite Sunee bar for a couple drinks and then wandered down to EZY Bar for a visit...I called my regular ladyboy and she met me there and we had a drink and went off into the night...We met again the next evening...Two great nights with a ladyboy I truly like to be with...I think perhaps full-time...I thought perhaps full-time...

Last night I didn't want to see her...I wanted to spend the evening alone...So bad man that I am, I ignored her calls and messages...I returned to my favorite Sunee bar and chatted a bit with the owner and lovely femman bar keep...And drank perhaps a bit too much...I returned to EZY Bar...Between the booze and one ladyboy's charm I broke my promise to myself and paid a barfine...

..well written......!!

same when i spend my 4 times a year in Siam....i NOT have any special plannings what i have to do on my trips....,i'm just a wood on the river, don't knowing where to strand next...and who beside me.....

.....but thats the way i luuuuuve soo much.....be free, be butterfly but be able to have feelings for all those who share the time/bed with me....i'm never in a hurry, but also i not stand still for wait just one person, the person have to come with me...i not will go with someone for leave my live-paths, and i make this clear for both before....

so every trip is a true adventure, many new and lovely girls pass my way and also a lot of friends/members are around to meet and talk about live & love....

...so there it's for me never the question "enough or not", cause it's never the same than the last........

maybe i'm a minor with my opinion. but my   for the new make me that i will ever return to Siam......  

[Ninewives]

(Juri @ Apr. 07 2010,12:39) ...so there it's for me never the question "enough or not", cause it's never the same than the last........

Brilliantly put

[Bumpa STIKKA]

This has turned into a riveting thread! Great replies, here... especially that poet Kahuna!

[Chinaman]

Whether I ever thought of giving it up? Sure, I have but giving up ladyboys would be like giving up sex in general and somehow that doesn't seem very feasible.

Without knowing the secrets to all this, I would say that it is important to find your personal balance in this, meaning that we all have different desires and approaches. Some can handle 3 or more different lbs a day, others are more inclined to search for this one special one, many stand somewhere in between. Where do you stand and what would make you happy?

Giving it up sounds very drastic and eventually might not hold up, in particular when being back here and having the choice. However, if chasing lbs keeps you from a different life you might desire - getting married to a person you truly love and respect, starting a family and many other reasons that could apply, without knowing you and where you stand in your current life - then, yes, getting away from it all might make sense but nevertheless you have been "infected" with the lb-virus and will therefore never be the same again.

Personally, I seem to have finally reached that stage where I enjoy coming to the LOS as much as I look forward to leaving again and doing other things as my life here tends to be a bit one-dimensional. I try to treat and respect my lbs as valuable human beings when I am with them but I also look at the situation is if I were choosing a restaurant for the nightly meal - what type of food would I fancy tonight? Do I want to try something new with all its risks and surprises involved or do I prefer a "dish" I know I will enjoy.

I have fallen in love with some of them but I have built up my resistance to that. What helped is that I now know for sure that I will never be able to communicate with them on a level I would find important in my daily life.

I have come to the conclusion that it is the old Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde story. When in Pattaya in particular, I am Dr. Jekyll during the day spending a lot of time in my room on my computer or meet BMs who might be in town for chats about god and the world. At night, it's Mr. Hyde-time and by now he knows that the next day these roles will be swapped again.

No, I would never want to give it up or have to find me in the situation of having to give it up - these are just magic moments to touch and f*ck a beautiful lb, it's rejuvenating for the soul, the mind, and to the body as well.

But anyway, unless you decide to never come back, you might not be able to really give it up ... Good luck, though :-)

[Chinaman]

Welcome back Kahuna. Didn't know you were in town again.
Probably see you around ... at least I know now that if I venture into EZY, I won't be all by myself ;-)

[katoeylover]

I guess for me I keep it interesting myself.

I was never one for the hunt, many ladyboys in one trip, i preferred finding just the one for the journey.

It has had it ups and downs. most of you knew about the ones along the wayand the long long times.
When they finished, i moved on and found another and yes I still think alot of some of those.

I find now that it easier to ntake it one step at a time, enjoy it for what it is and discover new adventures that dont involve sitting in a bar all night. Maybe this is the one, maybe not, but for now the ride is great and i wouldnt change it for anything.

As for you, the current situatuion is very difficult, and it is easy for us to tell you to get over it, get back on the saddle etc. It is for you to work out what YOU want, but I do know there are amny ladyboys in thailand ready to change your spare wheel.

[Tomcat]

to be honest i dont understand what the dilemma is with Spare Wheel.
If you dont like something then dont do it. It isnt a given that ones lust for Ladyboys will continue ad infinitum. Men tend to get less sexuallly active after 45. The average man is said to think about sex every 10 minutes, well thats just Mr Average remember. Maybe with me its about every 20 minutes on a good day

[jimslim]

(rxpharm @ Apr. 07 2010,06:43) Ultimately you must ask yourself, were you happier after you discovered lbs? If you say yes, then attempting to "give it up" will make you feel worse, and may lead to disaster should you attempt a relationship with a gg.

Sage like advice

I think you posted this a few months late Spare Wheel , Lent is over , next year try giving up something easy like cakes or sweets

[Buddy]

Take a break, if the urge comes back you can return. If not, don't. After a recent trip to Philippines I was beat and took a break. In that time I connected with a girlie girl back in the states I'm sweet on. If that works out I may just bin the whole hobby. Who can say what's right for another person's life?

[guydesavoy]

(Tomcat @ Apr. 07 2010,16:22) Men tend to get less sexuallly active after 45.

Not the impression anyone would get reading this forum

SW, it is unclear whether this dilemma is the result of recent 'happenings', or the realisation that after 6 years it's time to move on.

If it's the former, then time will take care of this and perhaps you'll come back at a diferent pace.
If the latter, then only you know the answer and time will take care of that one too

[Naang Faa]

(kahuna @ Apr. 07 2010,04:10) She is sleeping in my bed as I type...I don't even know her name...Aside from the fact that she is cute and sexy and a bit ting tong, I don't know anything about her...

And most importantly I'm thinking, aside from her name and where she is from in Thailand, I don't know anything about my regular ladyboy either...The one who I profess to like too much...Nothing...Nada, zilch, zip...

And therein lies my problem...Intimacy with a complete stranger...

So for now I will simply follow my tried and true routine...Fall in love in the evening and fall out of love in the morning...That is I suppose until I can no longer fall in love in the evening...

And I look at my bed where I don't know her name sleeps and I think how ugly she is...But she isn't...She is every bit as cute as she was in the bar last night...But damn, I wish she would wake up and leave...

Kahuna, that's very moving, brutally honest in a beautifully tragic way..
Brilliant,even if it does bring out everything i hate about the scene


Spare wheel..
Based on what you told me once,and third hand accounts,
what's the issue?
Do you feel let down ?
Or do you feel you let her (or yourself) down?

x

[seamus]

(kahuna @ Apr. 07 2010,02:10) You're not alone SW...

I just returned from a short visit home for another 3+ month visit to Pattaya...I couldn't wait to return...

My first evening back I met a fellow BM and we went off to my favorite Sunee bar for a couple drinks and then wandered down to EZY Bar for a visit...I called my regular ladyboy and she met me there and we had a drink and went off into the night...We met again the next evening...Two great nights with a ladyboy I truly like to be with...I think perhaps full-time...I thought perhaps full-time...

Last night I didn't want to see her...I wanted to spend the evening alone...So bad man that I am, I ignored her calls and messages...I returned to my favorite Sunee bar and chatted a bit with the owner and lovely femman bar keep...And drank perhaps a bit too much...I returned to EZY Bar...Between the booze and one ladyboy's charm I broke my promise to myself and paid a barfine...

She is sleeping in my bed as I type...I don't even know her name...Aside from the fact that she is cute and sexy and a bit ting tong, I don't know anything about her...

And most importantly I'm thinking, aside from her name and where she is from in Thailand, I don't know anything about my regular ladyboy either...The one who I profess to like too much...Nothing...Nada, zilch, zip...

And therein lies my problem...Intimacy with a complete stranger...

So for now I will simply follow my tried and true routine...Fall in love in the evening and fall out of love in the morning...That is I suppose until I can no longer fall in love in the evening...

And I look at my bed where I don't know her name sleeps and I think how ugly she is...But she isn't...She is every bit as cute as she was in the bar last night...But damn, I wish she would wake up and leave...

Has to be one of the all time great post on this forum & I'm not being biased cause he's me step Dad

How's it go "A wise old man once said"

I will be back over October 15Th till 23RD & will be about for at least one night, be great to catch up for a few cold ones

[El_hefe]

I constantly wonder if I meet a special gg back here in farangville now, would I be able to stop my wicked, wicked ways with the ladyboys? I don't know the answer to that, but do know that being older helps in that I'm not completely ruled by testosterone these days & emotional needs counterbalance some of the primal urges.... mostly.

I think I could chuck it now for the right woman, but I definitely couldn't have said that in my younger (ie., under 50 yo) days, absolutely not! However I have been dating/renting ladyboys/tg's almost exclusively for close to 20 years now at home & on holiday so I'm not extremely motivated to seek out gg's all that much it seems! GG's have the emotional element that is lacking in a lot of lb's it seems to me, but that is a general statement that is not always true I know.

[dardenne]

it's habit hard to crack........you may last a few months, but the lb fantasies always cum tumbling back, twice as strong.

it would take a very special gg to kill the lb desire that festers within..