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I just turned 27 and we're getting divorced. Together three years in total. It was long-distance, and if you add up all the vacations and visits, we probably only spent... 4 months max together? In-person, that is. Cally me crazy/stupid, you're probably right.
My experience with other women is extremely limited. No other relationships, handful of dates, a friendzone, and one hookup that wasn't full sex, and that's everything. I completely wasted my teens and early twenties, didn't even try.
Now that I'm single, I'm not even really sure what I want, because the things I want are both incompatible with one another and nearly impossible for me to achieve naturally anyway; a stable and long-term relationship with the perfect girl, and the male equivalent of a "hoe phase" where I make up for all the years I missed and have threesomes and do other crazy shit.
So in comes Pattaya. I had heard about Thailand when I was single, but anxious and shy younger me thought it impossible, and I forgot about it quickly. Then I get married years later, and imagine this, she starts dropping hints that we should visit Thailand and do threesomes with other girls. Then we got very serious about it. Never made it that far. Never had a threesome. Getting divorced instead. Yup, I fucked that up and maybe you can understand a little more why I'm upset.
I guess I'm kinda wondering if this can be the vacation I need to fix my brain. And maybe if I do this at least once, I won't crave the crazy shit in the future, at least as much, and I can be content in a serious and stable relationship, knowing I didn't miss out.
Am I insane?
My experience with other women is extremely limited. No other relationships, handful of dates, a friendzone, and one hookup that wasn't full sex, and that's everything. I completely wasted my teens and early twenties, didn't even try.
Now that I'm single, I'm not even really sure what I want, because the things I want are both incompatible with one another and nearly impossible for me to achieve naturally anyway; a stable and long-term relationship with the perfect girl, and the male equivalent of a "hoe phase" where I make up for all the years I missed and have threesomes and do other crazy shit.
So in comes Pattaya. I had heard about Thailand when I was single, but anxious and shy younger me thought it impossible, and I forgot about it quickly. Then I get married years later, and imagine this, she starts dropping hints that we should visit Thailand and do threesomes with other girls. Then we got very serious about it. Never made it that far. Never had a threesome. Getting divorced instead. Yup, I fucked that up and maybe you can understand a little more why I'm upset.
I guess I'm kinda wondering if this can be the vacation I need to fix my brain. And maybe if I do this at least once, I won't crave the crazy shit in the future, at least as much, and I can be content in a serious and stable relationship, knowing I didn't miss out.
Am I insane?
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