Ladyboy Fascination

[jenny.shemale]

hi guys, i started fascinated with female clothings since kindergarten, when i was around 6 or 7, always like wearing my friend's dress, stockings and shoes.

then my parents took me for a family vacation to thailand when i was in grade 2. thats the first contact with the ladyboy after watching a singing ladyboy show( those typical tourist show for the family). ever since then i like taking my mom or cousins clothings and play dress up.

when i am becoming teenagers, while looking for porn on line, an ad with a female body with a penis pop out. ever since then i started looking for shemale porns on the internet. and i was around 16 years old.

at first i only look for free porns, but after i started to have a part time job in senior high, i started to subscribe to pay sites.

after university, and having a job, i started to purchase woman clothing, make up, heels, lingerie and all the sexy stuffs and play dress up at home while looking at shemale porns online! wow, i love it.

however, my wife doesnt know my interest into ladyboys and my crossdressing habit!

i love my wife and i also love having a woman body and watching ladyboys. it would be great if my wife can accept my little secret! ( dont know if i should let her know)

The sad thing is I never met a ladyboy in my life in person!

I am now 25 years old, living in Toronto, Canada.

I would like to thank asian ts by providing us this forum, thank you

[Mr. GRUMPY (Grrr!)]

Welcome to the forum and for sharing your 'secret!'

There are a lot of good features in the Academia forum which will get you thinking.

Keep posting.

[Fred_Nguyen]

(jenny.shemale @ Jan. 06 2008,22:46) when i am becoming teenagers, while looking for porn on line, an ad with a female body with a penis pop out. ever since then i started looking for shemale porns on the internet. and i was around 16 years old.

at first i only look for free porns, but after i started to have a part time job in senior high, i started to subscribe to pay sites.

What is your first language?

[jenny.shemale]

Fred, sorry about my broken English. I was typing this in a rush since I don't get much privacy at home.

[mirimark]

Hey Jenny,  my thoughts are with you.
 I am one of the Lucky ones who has a wife who Understands that I am more Female than male.

I cross dress everyday.  My wife is the one who picks out my outfits.   I am not going to try and persuade you to tell your wife but I will tell how I broke the ice with my wife.

I got lucky because I told my wife very soon after we started dating.  Probably on our third of fourth date I told her I like to dress Like a girl.  She was very intrigued.

I think its more difficult for people to reveal their secrets the Longer they wait in the relationship.   But all is not lost.   Start dropping hints when you come across that T.V. show about transexuals etc...etc...  Catch my drift ?

 So through 11yr's of marriage to my wife.
" I'm the wife, and she is my husband. "

The differeance between me and most other's is that I was honest very early in the relationship.  I didn't spring a suprise on her 10yr's later.

Moral of the story ?
 No matter how much grief you get for being honest, do it early and often. It may take you longer to get what you want.  But you'll get it in the End.
All pun intended.

Good Luck Jenny.   Don't give up on trying to share your sexual desires with your wife.  Its never too late.  Besides,  if she really loves you,  she won't leave you unless she is Homophobic.
Is she Homophobic ?

Peace dude.    

[jenny.shemale]

mirimark

thank you so much for the advice. you are a very lucky man!!

[stogie bear]

I don't think most people have understanding spouses like Mirimark. Especially in Western countries. When my second wife (Mexican) saw pics of ladyboys on my computer our marriage was over! (Yeah, she's a whack job anyway - it was just another thing to bitch about!)

So long as your naughty sexy secret isn't causing you any distress then I'd just keep it as that - a secret.

Most people marry someone because of what they are - not what they may be in the future. It would take a huge amount of dedication to ask your wife to embrace something like a change of sexuality.

[jenny.shemale]

Most people marry someone because of what they are - not what they may be in the future. It would take a huge amount of dedication to ask your wife to embrace something like a change of sexuality.

bear is right!! keeping it a secret is safer!

[peterpan]

Jenny:

A female friend of mine, she is 56, got divorced from her husband, Peter about 10 years ago.

Peter, who is now Jill, was working the corporate latter in the UK and Thailand, very successfully, financially at least...

My Friend, knew Jill was a cross dresser, but they didn't address it well, he's 58 today and lives in the UK and is a very successful business trainer. He went the whole way, turned the cock inside out and is today a woman...

This may be an extreme example to give here, the point is that they didn't communicate about it and thus, went through a lot of pain, emotionally and likely on other levels too.

Honesty always wins in the end. I'm not saying you should tell your wife unless you feel its the right thing to do, for YOUR reasons, not hers and anyone else's..

Heck; maybe she would like to see her hubby in a thong, and it could be a way of testing the waters ..

All the best,


PP

[stogie bear]

Honesty always wins in the end...

We'll have to agree to disagree on this point. Honesty creates more mayhem and destruction than secrecy.

Of course every person and relationship is different, so I'm generalizing when I say that.

[peterpan]

That's cool and in general about this particular subject, total honesty may not be the smartest move in the world, I can see this.

I have however recently learned, at least with my own stuff, not related to the topic at hand, that honesty, no matter how much it hurts is the way... Each to his own...

PP

[statuesque]

(mirimark @ Jan. 10 2008,05:53) Besides,  if she really loves you,  she won't leave you unless she is Homophobic.
Is she Homophobic ?

Peace dude.    

Hi mirimark, I believe the term you might be referring is "transphobic". The only time a TG (male or female) becomes gay (homosexual) is when attracted to same gender. That is now called translesbian.  


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[Naang Faa]

(jenny.shemale @ Jan. 15 2008,04:49)

Most people marry someone because of what they are - not what they may be in the future. It would take a huge amount of dedication to ask your wife to embrace something like a change of sexuality.

bear is right!! keeping it a secret is safer!

Without going too deep into this one...

Even if she can accept it..it does become a very good
weapon to beat you with IF it all went wrong one day..

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[jenny.shemale]

Even if she can accept it..it does become a very good
weapon to beat you with IF it all went wrong one day.

yeah, thats true! keep in a secret indeed!!

[Naang Faa]

Trust me,been there bought the t-shirt..
My darkest days..

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