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Well I think it may have started when I went into the hospital. I was
rushed to the ER by a friend of mine. I was in my early 50's when this
happened. I was having bad chest pains. They checked me out and told me
that I had just had my 3rd heart attack but without going into great detail
of all that, they admitted me. The ER nurse told me to change out of my
clothes and into a hospital gown. Well without thinking I took off my pants
and took the gown from her. She then looked at me a smiled saying; Oh I
like your panties. Oh shit I forgot I was wearing them. She saw how
embarrassed I was and said. Oh don't worry dear, I really do like them and
I find it very sexy. I wish more men did. She then held out her had and
said, now let me have them and you get into this gown. She then winked at
me and said, you just look so cute! She then left the room. Well I was
admitted and they sent me to my own room. The next day that same nurse came
in, she told me her name was Debbie. She then put a bag of my belongings in
the closet net to my bed. She sat down and started talking,. She asked me
some personal questions and so forth. I remember wondering what she needed
to know all this for. She then listened to my heart checked my temp and
blood pressure and checked my pulse. Told me that everything looked ok. She
then said to me, not to worry or be embarrassed about her seeing me in my
panties. But she loved seeing me in them and that my secret was save with
her.. She then winked at me and said who knows maybe we will meet after you
get out of hear. Well I thought oh sure, in my dreams! She was hot, she
was probably in her mid to late 30's and stood about 5'5" weighted around
120lbs had small but very round breast, a tiny waist, the roundest butt I
think that I have ever seen and very short red hair and a pair of beautiful
eyes.(you might even call them bedroom eyes and had a pair of what I call
powty lips, she was just very very sexy! I thought Oh sure we will. She
then left the room. I didn't see her anymore during my stay there.
Well after a few days I was sent home. Then on the forth day of being home
I got a dozen red roses delivered to me at my home. They had a card saying
"hope your feeling better; I hope we can get together soon, signed, your
new friend." Well I had know idea who in the world they could have been
from. But it made me feel kind of special, if you know what I mean. I just
kept trying to figure out who would have sent me such pretty flowers, but I
had no idea. Well things were starting to go back to normal, I went back to
work and my daily things. Then I came home one day and there was a note to
call a florist, I did and they said they had something for me and wanted to
bring it righto ver. So they did, it was another dozen red roses, With
another note saying. "I sure would like for us to get together and play,
Signed your new friend" Well this blew my mind I just could not figure out
who was doing this. I was about to drive me crazy. A few more days went by
then my phone rang . I answered it and the woman's voice on the other end
asked, so, have you enjoyed your flowers? I said sure have but who is
this. The person said, well, why don't you meet me at a the "Zone", it's a
local coffee shop, tomorrow at 7:00 and you will find out. I said ok , I'll
see you then, but how will I know who you are, she answered oh, you just
will. So with that I hung the phone up. That whole night and the next day I
just kept thinking about who it might be but still had know idea.
Well I got ready and headed there. Then as I walked in I saw her. It was
the red headed nurse from the hospital. She stood up as I walked over to
her. But before I could say anything she gave me a huge kiss then asked
"are you surprised?" I answer sure am, as I was trying to catch my
breath. She then said, I've wanted to do that since I first saw you in the
ER. Well we sat down and started talking. Well to cut things a little
short we became very good friends. Nothing physical had happened between
us, to my disappointment but I really liked her so I didn't push it. Well
over the next couple of weeks we became very close friends . She asked me a
couple of different times if I was wearing my panties and I told her yes,
because I wore them all the time.
I remember the night that she told me about her husband. He along with her
14 month old daughter had been killed in a car accident 6 months before we
met. I felt so sorry for her as she cried on my shoulder. I was really
beginning to feel very close to her. Well over the next few weeks things
got even closed between us. She told me how her husband was a crossdresser
and how she really liked that part of him. Told me how he started it and
well, just everything about him. She then asked me if I ever crossdressed
or did I just wear panties. I told her that I had been crossdressing off
and on since I was 12 years old. Well you would not believe the gleam that
came into her eyes as she asked really? I said yes and I hoped she would
think badly of me because of it. She smiled and said, oh no sweetie, if
anything I feel even closer to you knowing that. She then asked me if I
would like to come over to her apartment this Friday and get all dressed up
for her. Well I could not believe that she was really asking me this. I
have only totaled dressed up for one another woman and that was a long time
ago. But after we talked about it a little more I said sure! She then
said, now just one more thing, I asked what. She said no sex, no matter
what there was to be no sex between us, she was afraid it would spoil
things between us, so I agreed as much as I hated to. She then said now
just bring your things, don't do anything to get ready I want to help you
get ready just like I did Mike, that was her husbands name. So I said ok,
I'll be there around 8:00 or so. Well we both got busy and we didn't see or
talk to each other any more that week. So when Friday came I thought I
better call her and see if she still wanted me to come over. Well she said
I sure do, it's all I've been thinking about all week. So I said fine I'll
see you at 8:00 she then reminded me not to do anything to get ready, I
said ok, see you in a little while. Well I didn't have a whole lot of
woman's clothing, just 2 out fits and a couple of night gowns but had toms
of panties and also had one set of breast forms. So I picked out the
prettiest bra and panties and took everything else with me. I got there at
8:15 took me longer to gather everything up. When I first got there she
greeted me at the door with a great big kiss, she had never kissed me like
that before, made my toes tingle. She had on a bath robe and apologized for
it. I told her that was ok with me. She then grabbed my hand and led me
towards her bedroom. Once in there she took my bag from my hand and
said. Now since you're going to be dressing up for me and allowing me to
help you, I figured you could help get me dressed also. She then opened her
robe and let it fall to the floor. There I was looking at one of the most
beautiful female bodies I think I had ever seen. Her breast were beautiful
had small cute nipples. She had the flattest belly I had ever seen and a
tiny waist. Her pussy was as smooth as a babys butt, I loved that, I hate
body hair. She then bent towards me and gave me another kiss. She then
started unbuttoning my shirt and said now lets get you undressed. I wasn't
long before she had me totally naked. She looked me up and down and smiled
when she looked at my shaved pubic area. She said, oh I see you don't like
hair down there too. I said, yes I hate body hair anywhere. She then said
well, let get you in the tub and get you all shaved. So we headed for the
bathroom. Well she already had the tub filled. There were candles lit all
around the room and the tub was filled with bubbles. It looked so romantic
she then told me to get in and as I lowered myself into the tub she
followed me. As she laid on top of me with her head on my chest. She went
on to tell me how much this night meant to her and that she really
appreciated me doing all this for her. Hell I was thinking the same thing
and I told her that. So we laid there in this tub of hot water surrounded
by all these bubbles, it was great! Well after a short while she stood up
and said, well let's get started. She then told me to get out of the tub,
she then put lotion all over my whole body, she told me it Nair, she let is
set for a while and then had me get into the shower and shower it all
off. Then she had me stand in front of her and started shaving what all the
Nair hadn't gotten. As she finished she gave me another kiss and told me
how nice my smooth body looked. She then ribbed me down with body lotion
and led me back into the bedroom. She had me empty my back and we both went
through everything. She then helped me I to my read bra and put the breast
forms in to it. She looked at me and smiled say, oh my those look
great. She then handed me a black bra that she had gotten from her drawer
and said, hear, put this on me, and remember you're going to dress me as I
dress you, so I did, to my delight. She then picked up the red panties and
stated putting them on me, She then bent down on her knees and looked up at
me, saying now remember you agreed no sex, she then gave my cock a light
kiss and pushed in down in between my legs and pulled the panties up. I
said I know, I know, but god I wanted to so bad. Then I walked over to her
dresser and pulled out a pair of very sexy black panties and put them on
her, giving her pussy just a tiny kiss, just like she did me. She then
picked up my panty hose and told me to go ahead and put them on myself. She
reached around and pulled out a black garter belt and black stockings
saying, we will have to get you some of these, smiling ear to ear. So after
I was finished I helped her into those. She then picked out my pink blouse
and black skirt and put them on me. I remember her saying how I must like
short skirts since it was so short, I just smiled and answered, well kind
of. I then put a short black dress on her that she alreadty had laid out. I
also was very short and had a slit up one side that went almost all the way
up her side. You could very easily see the top of her nylon stockings. Wow,
she looked sexy. She then sat me down at her dresser and asked if I'd like
to wear one of her wigs. I said sure. She went a got a long read one. I
mean it went half way down my back. She played with it, did a ton of
different thing with it until she was happy. Then she started putting
makeup on my face, she took quite a while doing this, then she unbuttoned
the top 2 buttons of my blouse, put some make up on my chest saying, this
will make you look like you have some cleavage. Well when she stepped back
and let me see myself I could not believe what I was seeing. I could not
believe that was me in the mirror. She had done a wonderful job on me ! She
then asked well, what do you think, I turned to her and said, OH my god I
just love it, I then gave her a huge kiss, I even got a little carried away
and started running my hands all over her. She then push me away saying,
now remember. Remember what you promised. I told her I was sorry I just got
carried away. She smiled and told me that is was Ok she understood. She
then sat down and did her makeup and hair.
She the walked me into the living room and told me that she had a surprise
for me. She asked me if I had a name, I said that I had had a few over the
years but I liked Julie the best. She then said fine. I'm talking my Julie
out for dinner tonight. I said what, me out in public looking like
this. She laughed and said YES looking like that. Look just how good you
look. Well I must agree I did look pretty good. So we walked out to her
car and she opened the passenger door for me, I then got in thinking, wow
this just might be fun, I've never done anything like this before. Then she
drove us to a quite little restaurant on the other side of town. She said
for me not to worry that this place was safe, that she and her husband had
gone there many times. She then told me to just enjoy the evening being
Julie, So I did and it was a great evening, she ordered for me she really
made me feel like a woman. Then I had to go potty and wasn't sure what to
do, so I bent across the table and asked her what I should do. She started
laughing and finally said, well look at you, you are a lady tonight so use
the ladies room; here we will go together, so we did. We got up and went to
the ladies room together just liked real women to. While we were in there
she walked up to me and gave me a huge kiss while rubbing her body up
against mine. She then told me how much I was turning her on. She the just
turned around and started heading out of the ladies room, just left me
standing there catching my breath. I caught up with her pretty quick though
and we then went back to the table to finish out dinner.
Well after dinner we were sitting there having a nice couple glasses of
wine when she said. Julie you look great but you do need to learn a few
things. I said what do you mean? She said well, you just need to learn how
to move like a female, how to walk, sit, talk, move you hands and just in
general act more like a woman./ Well I had to agree with her about
that. She then said, I'll tell you what, if you really want to be like a
true woman that she could and would teach me, that is if I promised her
something... I leaned forward asking, what do you have in mind? I asked
what? She said well, you come over say, next Thursday and surrender
yourself to me, give me complete and total control to do what ever I want
and see fit to and with you, no matter what it may be and let me do this
for 4 days. After you do this I will spend as much time as it takes to turn
you into a real woman, just like you want to be, no one will ever know any
different after I'm though. I then said, well Ok but just what are you
going to do. She laughed and said; well that's the hard part for you. She
the said I know that you like being in control of most things, but in this
case you will not know what's going to happen and you will not have any say
so in it at all. Well I thought for a few moments and asked, so you will
teach me everything about being a woman? She smiled and Oh Yes everything!
So I agreed and asked her what time she wanted me there Thursday. She said
come straight from work, so I said ok. She then leaned over and said great
now lets go home so I can really enjoy you tonight. She then paid the bill
and we left. . On the way back to the house I kept asking her just what it
was that she had in mind for me the next weekend. She said now look, no
mater how much you ask or even beg I'm no going to tell you anything. As
soon as we got back to her place she asked me to sit on the couch, she then
went and got a couple od glasses of coke and brought in a bottle of
Jack. She then said, now look at yourself Julie, see you need to cross your
legs like this, she then showed me how. She said see it's things like that
you need to learn. I agreed with her. She then pored each of us a shot of
Jack and we started drinking. Well it wasn't long before we both were
pretty drunk, me more than her I think, I can't drink much whisky. Pretty
soon she started putting the moves on me. She was kissing me putting her
tong halfway down my throat, nibbling on my ears, running her hands all
over me making me very horny. Well it wasn't long before she was slipping
me out of my panty hose. Sound I did about the same thing you her. She was
really getting hot now. Then I asked, don't you think we should stop,
remember you're the one that said no sex. She then said I said that to Joe
and that's true. I don't want sex with Joe I want it with you Julie. Well I
about died right there. Hear is this beautiful woman telling me she wants
to have sex with me as Julie, this was my wildest fantasy!! So on we
went. She was more aggressive than I was; she finally took me to her bed
room and stated undressing me, everything except my bra and panties. I also
undressed her. I started sucking on one of those beautiful breasts of hers
and felt something warm in my mouth. I pulled away and noticed it looked
like milk. She smiled and said, oh yes I forgot to tell you, I'm still
producing milk from when I had my daughter; I was going to tell you next
weekend. But go ahead and suck on them if you like. Well I did and oh my,
yes I loved the tastes of her milk. Then she got up went over to her
dresser and came back with something. She started kissing on me again and
removed my panties. She then sat up and strapped on this hug didldo. I was
probably 8-9" It looked huge! She then said, now I'm going to fuck my young
lady. She then spread my legs far apart, and started putting lotion some
lotion on her dildo and started fucking me. First with one finger then two
then with her cock, God it hurt so bad as she was pushing that hug thing in
me. Then all of a sudden I kind of felt it go in all the way. I had tears
running down my face it hurt so bad. She then said, oh my you're a virgin
aren't you. I couldn't speak because of the pain but I shook my head
yes. She then smiled and said, my I had no idea. She laid there motionless
for what seamed like a long time. The pain had gotten a little better at
this point.. Then she started moving slowly. Moving in and out, slowly,
then just a little faster. Well pretty soon the pain was replaced by the
most wonderful thing I think I had ever felt. She kept going faster and
faster. It was great. Hear I was with my legs up in the air rally be fucked
by this beautiful woman. Wow I never new it could feel this good. I had
thought about it a few times but never dreamed it would feel this good. My
cock was getting harder and harder, the harder she fucked me the harder my
cock became. It was to long before I shot a load of come like I haven't
since I was in my teens. WOW it felt so good. She then stopped and pulled
her cock out of me, it came out with kind of a pop. She then licked all my
cum off of my belly. WOW I'll never forget that night. I then started
sucking her breast, drinking more of her milk and she guided my hand
towards her pussy. I then started rubbing it and before long she cam and
she cam hard, WOW what a night. We both drifted off to sleep. When I woke
in the morning she was gone. There was a note on the bathroom mirror. It
said, Thank you for last night Julie, I had a wonderful time. I had to go
to work this morning so make yourself at home but I won't be home until
late tonight. Just remember Joe is suppose to be hear Thursday right after
he gets off of work, love Deb. Well I went ahead and took a shower. Picked
up all my things and headed for home, still thinking of how great last
night felt. I know that nobody had ever made me feel like such a woman
before and I loved it. I couldn't wait till next Thursday.
CHAPTER 2
Well Debbie and I only got to talk to each other twice that week, we were
both very busy. I did ask her what she wanted me to bring with me Thursday
she said nothing, That she had everything that I needed. That was a very
busy week for me at work. We had a lot of boiler problems that
week. . Thursday was the day from hell for me at work. I had 2 pipes in the
library that I had to get replace or I would have to work Friday. So I went
in early, around 5:30 in the morning and worked straight through without
taking a lunch. I finally finished around 4:00 that afternoon. I called her
told about my whole day and told her that I was going to go home and take a
shower and eat something and then I`d be over. She said oh no, just come
as you are, she said I'll run a bath for you and feed you, so I said ok and
that I was on my way.
I arrived at her door shortly before 5:00. Just as soon as I walked in she
told me to stop right there and take off everything, told me to get
completely naked. So I did. She then walked me into the kitchen and handed
me a piece of paper and told me to read it and then sign it. So I read it,
this is what it said.
I Joe Reed agree to do anything that Debbie Goldsmith tells me to. I want
her and give her permission to do all of this to and for me. She has
totally and complete control over me and everything that happens to me
until Monday evening. I am making this decision of my own free will. I
looked at her and she said go ahead sign it and we will get started. So I
signed it and she led me into the bath room.
She said now go ahead and take a shower and then come into her bedroom
when your done, I'll be waiting for you there. So I washed myself and then
dried off and walked into her room. I could not believe what I saw.
I saw Debbie next to her bed with a diaper in her hand and a big smile
on her face. As she reached out and grabbed my hand I noticed on her
dresser a bottle of baby powder, and lotion and couple of other bottles of
something. There was a pacifier lying next to another diaper on the
bed. Next to that was what looked like a night gown or something?. She then
said now lay down and I'll tell you what is going on. So I laid down and
she said. From this moment on you will be my baby girl. You will do
everything as a baby girl would and I will treat you just as though you are
my baby daughter. I looked at her with this look and she said; now you
agreed and you even signed a paper, saying that you would let me do
anything that I wanted to, so you have no choice. Now hand me your
dentures, for my daughter is way too young to have teeth yet, so I did. I
remember thinking is this realty happening or what? This couldn't be what
she wanted, or could it?
She then told me to raise up my bottom so she could put a diaper under me,
I felt so embarrassed about this whole thing.. Well she started rubbing
lotion then powder all over me. Then she went and put 2 cloth diapers on me
and pulled up a pair of pink plastic pant over them. She then put a
pacifier in my mouth. She stood there over me smiling and said, now doesn't
my little girl look so cute, she reach around grabbed a camera and took 3
pictures of me laying there in my diaper. She said now if you're a good
girl all weekend I'll give you this film on Monday ok? I took the pacifier
from my mouth and said, well I guess I don't have much of a choice, now do
I? She smiled and sad, no you don't and that is the last words I want to
hear from you. For my baby is way to young to speak, let's see she is only
14 moths old.
So I guess I was to be her baby daughter for the weekend, I thought now
this is strange kind of wired maybe even a little on the sick side but I
realized I really did not have a choice so I better just go along with it
and try to enjoy it as much as I could.
Debbie then put this yellow and white little dress on me, it was so short
you could still see the whole diaper, it looked like something a little
girl would were. She then change my plastic pants saying they didn't go
with my dress. She then put some little white socks on me that had yellow
fringe along the top. She then took another picture. She then told me to
followed her into the living room and to make sure that I crawled because
her baby was to young to walk, just yet. So I did. She sat on the couch and
told me to crawl up next to her that it was time I was fed. She then opened
her blouse, unfastened one of the cups of her bra and pulled me towards her
breast. After she got it into my mouth she said, now be a good little girl
and nurse. So I started sucking her breast drinking her breast milk. It was
kind of sweet but real thin. I liked it though. She told me that was all I
was going to get to eat until I go a little older. She kept moving me from
one breast then to the other. She told me how she had kept using a breast
pump everyday in order to keep her breast [producing milk. She said somehow
it made her feel closer to the daughter that she lost. Well after a little
while at sucking on her and drinking that warm milk I drifted off to sleep,
right there in her arms with her breast in my mouth. I woke up by her
changing my diapers, Somehow I had gotten it all wet. She was talking to me
just like I was a little baby, pinching my nose and tickling my belly, just
really acting like I was her baby. I felt ridicules, I guess she could tell
because all of a sudden she rose up pulling the diaper right out from under
me. She then said fine, if you don't want to play along you don't have to!
Just grab you clothes and leave. I sat up looking right at her. Then she
said, just remember I have those pictures and I'm pretty sure you wouldn't
want them to get around, now would you?. I sat there for a second and then
just laid back down and put my thumb in my mouth. She grinned from ear to
ear. She then raised my bottom up and started putting the diaper back on
me. I thought, ok you want me to be your baby then I will and I started
peeing, I peed right at her, got her on the chin and on her neck. She
immediately covered me with the dipper saying, oh now look what you went
and done, laughing the whole time. But it's ok for I know how babies can't
control them selves sometimes. I think she was enjoying all of this. She
waited a little while, slowly lifter the diaper and asked are you
finished. She the grabbed a dry one and proceed to change me again. Putting
the lotion and powder all over my bottom and private areas, I was beginning
to like that part, it felt good.. I thought to myself, ok, ok I'm just
going to lay back, let her do everything for me and I'm going to let myself
enjoy it. Then all of a sudden I felt something sharp stick me in my leg. I
looked down at her and she was smiling saying. Don't worry it's only
Valium; it will make you enjoy all this much more. Well let me tell you the
room started spinning round and round, she grabbed my head and said now
hang Julie don't pass out on me, come on stay with me. After a moment or
two everything stopped spinning. But man did I ever feel strange, it's kind
of hard to describe. She then said now come on try and follow me to your
room. So I did but let me tell you it was tuff. When I got to her spare
room the fist thing I noticed was it was all pink and yellow with all kinds
of baby things every wear. I remember thinking how cute the room was.
Along one wall was this hug baby bed and it had a small stool sitting in
front og it. She lowered the side of it and told me to crawl in. As she was
raising the side back up she told me how she found this store that sold all
kinds of things for babies my size. She reach down and pulled out what
looked like a night shirt. She slipped it over me head, pulled it down over
me feet and tied it shut. Now my feet were tied up inside this night gown
or whatever it was. She the put the pacifier back in my mouth turned the
light down lower and then sat in a chair next to the bed and started
reading a book to me. I can't remember what she said, I just remember the
sound of her voice and her rubbing my back as I drifted off to sleep.
The next thing I remember was her lifting up my legs and pulling the diaper
out from under me. She said its ok; it was her fault for not putting enough
of them on me. The diaper she pulled out was soaking wet, I remember
thinking how did that get so wet. She then started putting one under me,
then another and then another, pretty soon she had 4 of then under me, she
powdered me and stated pinning them all up. Then she pull some plastic
pants up over them and pulled the night gown off of me and put another one
back one me just like it except it was pink. Then she said, now come over
here to my chair with me Julie, and lay on my lap .So still half asleep I
crawled out and over to her. . She started nursing me again, so I went
along and stated sucking I was kind of hungry anyway. I did like drinking
her milk. Soon I drifter back off to sleep. The next thing I remember was
waking up in this baby bed with the sun shinning into the room. I guess it
to be early morning sometime. I laid there thinking about all that went on
last night. I thought, you know this is kind of fun. Then Debbie came in
rubbing her eyes and yawning, saying, Oh, look my little angel is
awake. She then bent down and kissed me on the forehead while putting my
pacifier back into my mouth. She then said now just wait and mommy will be
right back. I then heard the bathroom door close. I was just laying there
and all of a sudden my butt started burning, the more I thought about it
the more it burnt. I reach down and felt it, I could tell that my diaper
had a load in it. I though, damn what in the hell have I done! Then I
thought, hell this is what she wants me to do. So I laid there a few
minutes and thought, hey start crying like a baby would, she will like
that. So I did, I started crying, my butt kept burning more and more. The
more I cried the more I wanted to cry, before long I found myself crying
uncontrollably, I could not stop myself from crying and my butt hurt so
bad !!! Well after what seamed like forever she came back in say, oh do
you need your mommy? She then untied the night gown from around my feet and
pulled down my plastic pants. She then smiled and said oh, I guess you do
need mommy. You have dirtied your diaper. Let mommy get some clean ones and
we will get you all cleaned up. So that's what she did. I remember how
embarrassed I felt having her clean poop off of my but, god this was very
humiliating, I wasn't sure if I could keep doing this. Then I remember her
looking at me and saying, but my sweaty you have no choice, I wondered, how
did she know what I was thinking? Then I felt that sharp thing in the leg
again. I guess she was giving me another shot. Once again the room started
going round and round and round. She grabbed my head and said no hang on
baby, don't pass out on me. Well just like before everything soon stopped
going around. Boy I'll tell you I felt strange. Kind of like I didn't care
about anything, like I was just an observer and could control nor did I
want to control any of what was going on. Kind of like I was just watching
everything from a distance. That's about the best I can describe it. I
then remember hearing her saying, come on Julie, it's time we get you fed,
aren't you hungry? So Debbie started nursing me once again. I can remember
how hungry I was. I started sucking on here right away. I guess I was
sucking a lot harder than I had before because she kept telling me to slow
down. Well it wasn't long before I had sucked her completely dry. I mean I
could get a drop out of either one of her breast and I felt like I was
starving. I remember the look on her face when she said; oh my poor baby is
still hungry. For some reason that I'm not sure of I just started to cry
and I mean really cry and I couldn't control it. I remember how she pulled
my face up to her neck and hugged me saying, don't worry now, mommy has
more food for you in the kitchen. She then laid me back down and went into
the kitchen. It was long before she came back with 3 jars of baby food. She
sat down in front of me, having me set up on the couch. She then put a bib
on me and started spoon feeding me. I remember how awful they tasted,
especially the green beans. But I was so hungry that I hate every bit of
what she feed me. She then told me what a good girl I was and said, now
don't go anywhere I've got a bottle for you also. She then went into the
kitchen and came back with a baby bottle. She then sat back on the couch
and pulled me up on her lap. She then put the bottle in my mouth. Now let
me tell you this shit was nasty, I mean very nasty. I tried to push it out
of my mouth and she just laughed say, now, now Julie be a good girl and
drink all of your formula, mommy made it just for you. So I did, but god it
was nasty.
As she was bottle feeding me she starting talking. But this time she was
talking to me as an adult. She said, no listen to me. I have a question and
I want to know what you think. I noticed last week how much you enjoyed
being dressed up and treated like a woman. And in getting to know you I
have noticed how you tend to be on the feminine side, what I want to know
is if you would like to become a real and total woman, for ever? If you do
I can make it happen for you. This is what I'd like to she said I'd like to
keep you as my baby for maybe 2-3 months and then start raising you up as a
little girl. Remember a woman doesn't become a woman over night, it's a
process, a learning process. We will would need to get you a lot of
surgeries. The first to be breast implants, the SRS , then plastic
surgery. We would need to start you on hormones right away. I'm sure that
we can turn you into a real woman and a pretty good looking one at that. I
can talk to a few of my doctor friends and I'm sure I can get you on
disability because of your heart. I could then start you on hormones and
really turn you into a real woman.. Just remember women become women by
growing up female. By that I mean they start off being baby girls, like you
are right now, then they turn into little girls then they turn into young
ladies then they become woman. It's a process that takes time and I'm
willing to take you through that process. I t would probably take around 2
years total. What do you think about it?
Well I could believe what I just heard, was this for real or what? Now
remember I have these drugs in me that she had been giving me. I know I've
always wanted to be a girl, ever since I was 12 years old. Now hear is this
woman wanting to act as my mommy and really turn me into a real woman. I
mean this would be for ever!!!
What should I do? HELP !!!!
Well I think it may have started when I went into the hospital. I was
rushed to the ER by a friend of mine. I was in my early 50's when this
happened. I was having bad chest pains. They checked me out and told me
that I had just had my 3rd heart attack but without going into great detail
of all that, they admitted me. The ER nurse told me to change out of my
clothes and into a hospital gown. Well without thinking I took off my pants
and took the gown from her. She then looked at me a smiled saying; Oh I
like your panties. Oh shit I forgot I was wearing them. She saw how
embarrassed I was and said. Oh don't worry dear, I really do like them and
I find it very sexy. I wish more men did. She then held out her had and
said, now let me have them and you get into this gown. She then winked at
me and said, you just look so cute! She then left the room. Well I was
admitted and they sent me to my own room. The next day that same nurse came
in, she told me her name was Debbie. She then put a bag of my belongings in
the closet net to my bed. She sat down and started talking,. She asked me
some personal questions and so forth. I remember wondering what she needed
to know all this for. She then listened to my heart checked my temp and
blood pressure and checked my pulse. Told me that everything looked ok. She
then said to me, not to worry or be embarrassed about her seeing me in my
panties. But she loved seeing me in them and that my secret was save with
her.. She then winked at me and said who knows maybe we will meet after you
get out of hear. Well I thought oh sure, in my dreams! She was hot, she
was probably in her mid to late 30's and stood about 5'5" weighted around
120lbs had small but very round breast, a tiny waist, the roundest butt I
think that I have ever seen and very short red hair and a pair of beautiful
eyes.(you might even call them bedroom eyes and had a pair of what I call
powty lips, she was just very very sexy! I thought Oh sure we will. She
then left the room. I didn't see her anymore during my stay there.
Well after a few days I was sent home. Then on the forth day of being home
I got a dozen red roses delivered to me at my home. They had a card saying
"hope your feeling better; I hope we can get together soon, signed, your
new friend." Well I had know idea who in the world they could have been
from. But it made me feel kind of special, if you know what I mean. I just
kept trying to figure out who would have sent me such pretty flowers, but I
had no idea. Well things were starting to go back to normal, I went back to
work and my daily things. Then I came home one day and there was a note to
call a florist, I did and they said they had something for me and wanted to
bring it righto ver. So they did, it was another dozen red roses, With
another note saying. "I sure would like for us to get together and play,
Signed your new friend" Well this blew my mind I just could not figure out
who was doing this. I was about to drive me crazy. A few more days went by
then my phone rang . I answered it and the woman's voice on the other end
asked, so, have you enjoyed your flowers? I said sure have but who is
this. The person said, well, why don't you meet me at a the "Zone", it's a
local coffee shop, tomorrow at 7:00 and you will find out. I said ok , I'll
see you then, but how will I know who you are, she answered oh, you just
will. So with that I hung the phone up. That whole night and the next day I
just kept thinking about who it might be but still had know idea.
Well I got ready and headed there. Then as I walked in I saw her. It was
the red headed nurse from the hospital. She stood up as I walked over to
her. But before I could say anything she gave me a huge kiss then asked
"are you surprised?" I answer sure am, as I was trying to catch my
breath. She then said, I've wanted to do that since I first saw you in the
ER. Well we sat down and started talking. Well to cut things a little
short we became very good friends. Nothing physical had happened between
us, to my disappointment but I really liked her so I didn't push it. Well
over the next couple of weeks we became very close friends . She asked me a
couple of different times if I was wearing my panties and I told her yes,
because I wore them all the time.
I remember the night that she told me about her husband. He along with her
14 month old daughter had been killed in a car accident 6 months before we
met. I felt so sorry for her as she cried on my shoulder. I was really
beginning to feel very close to her. Well over the next few weeks things
got even closed between us. She told me how her husband was a crossdresser
and how she really liked that part of him. Told me how he started it and
well, just everything about him. She then asked me if I ever crossdressed
or did I just wear panties. I told her that I had been crossdressing off
and on since I was 12 years old. Well you would not believe the gleam that
came into her eyes as she asked really? I said yes and I hoped she would
think badly of me because of it. She smiled and said, oh no sweetie, if
anything I feel even closer to you knowing that. She then asked me if I
would like to come over to her apartment this Friday and get all dressed up
for her. Well I could not believe that she was really asking me this. I
have only totaled dressed up for one another woman and that was a long time
ago. But after we talked about it a little more I said sure! She then
said, now just one more thing, I asked what. She said no sex, no matter
what there was to be no sex between us, she was afraid it would spoil
things between us, so I agreed as much as I hated to. She then said now
just bring your things, don't do anything to get ready I want to help you
get ready just like I did Mike, that was her husbands name. So I said ok,
I'll be there around 8:00 or so. Well we both got busy and we didn't see or
talk to each other any more that week. So when Friday came I thought I
better call her and see if she still wanted me to come over. Well she said
I sure do, it's all I've been thinking about all week. So I said fine I'll
see you at 8:00 she then reminded me not to do anything to get ready, I
said ok, see you in a little while. Well I didn't have a whole lot of
woman's clothing, just 2 out fits and a couple of night gowns but had toms
of panties and also had one set of breast forms. So I picked out the
prettiest bra and panties and took everything else with me. I got there at
8:15 took me longer to gather everything up. When I first got there she
greeted me at the door with a great big kiss, she had never kissed me like
that before, made my toes tingle. She had on a bath robe and apologized for
it. I told her that was ok with me. She then grabbed my hand and led me
towards her bedroom. Once in there she took my bag from my hand and
said. Now since you're going to be dressing up for me and allowing me to
help you, I figured you could help get me dressed also. She then opened her
robe and let it fall to the floor. There I was looking at one of the most
beautiful female bodies I think I had ever seen. Her breast were beautiful
had small cute nipples. She had the flattest belly I had ever seen and a
tiny waist. Her pussy was as smooth as a babys butt, I loved that, I hate
body hair. She then bent towards me and gave me another kiss. She then
started unbuttoning my shirt and said now lets get you undressed. I wasn't
long before she had me totally naked. She looked me up and down and smiled
when she looked at my shaved pubic area. She said, oh I see you don't like
hair down there too. I said, yes I hate body hair anywhere. She then said
well, let get you in the tub and get you all shaved. So we headed for the
bathroom. Well she already had the tub filled. There were candles lit all
around the room and the tub was filled with bubbles. It looked so romantic
she then told me to get in and as I lowered myself into the tub she
followed me. As she laid on top of me with her head on my chest. She went
on to tell me how much this night meant to her and that she really
appreciated me doing all this for her. Hell I was thinking the same thing
and I told her that. So we laid there in this tub of hot water surrounded
by all these bubbles, it was great! Well after a short while she stood up
and said, well let's get started. She then told me to get out of the tub,
she then put lotion all over my whole body, she told me it Nair, she let is
set for a while and then had me get into the shower and shower it all
off. Then she had me stand in front of her and started shaving what all the
Nair hadn't gotten. As she finished she gave me another kiss and told me
how nice my smooth body looked. She then ribbed me down with body lotion
and led me back into the bedroom. She had me empty my back and we both went
through everything. She then helped me I to my read bra and put the breast
forms in to it. She looked at me and smiled say, oh my those look
great. She then handed me a black bra that she had gotten from her drawer
and said, hear, put this on me, and remember you're going to dress me as I
dress you, so I did, to my delight. She then picked up the red panties and
stated putting them on me, She then bent down on her knees and looked up at
me, saying now remember you agreed no sex, she then gave my cock a light
kiss and pushed in down in between my legs and pulled the panties up. I
said I know, I know, but god I wanted to so bad. Then I walked over to her
dresser and pulled out a pair of very sexy black panties and put them on
her, giving her pussy just a tiny kiss, just like she did me. She then
picked up my panty hose and told me to go ahead and put them on myself. She
reached around and pulled out a black garter belt and black stockings
saying, we will have to get you some of these, smiling ear to ear. So after
I was finished I helped her into those. She then picked out my pink blouse
and black skirt and put them on me. I remember her saying how I must like
short skirts since it was so short, I just smiled and answered, well kind
of. I then put a short black dress on her that she alreadty had laid out. I
also was very short and had a slit up one side that went almost all the way
up her side. You could very easily see the top of her nylon stockings. Wow,
she looked sexy. She then sat me down at her dresser and asked if I'd like
to wear one of her wigs. I said sure. She went a got a long read one. I
mean it went half way down my back. She played with it, did a ton of
different thing with it until she was happy. Then she started putting
makeup on my face, she took quite a while doing this, then she unbuttoned
the top 2 buttons of my blouse, put some make up on my chest saying, this
will make you look like you have some cleavage. Well when she stepped back
and let me see myself I could not believe what I was seeing. I could not
believe that was me in the mirror. She had done a wonderful job on me ! She
then asked well, what do you think, I turned to her and said, OH my god I
just love it, I then gave her a huge kiss, I even got a little carried away
and started running my hands all over her. She then push me away saying,
now remember. Remember what you promised. I told her I was sorry I just got
carried away. She smiled and told me that is was Ok she understood. She
then sat down and did her makeup and hair.
She the walked me into the living room and told me that she had a surprise
for me. She asked me if I had a name, I said that I had had a few over the
years but I liked Julie the best. She then said fine. I'm talking my Julie
out for dinner tonight. I said what, me out in public looking like
this. She laughed and said YES looking like that. Look just how good you
look. Well I must agree I did look pretty good. So we walked out to her
car and she opened the passenger door for me, I then got in thinking, wow
this just might be fun, I've never done anything like this before. Then she
drove us to a quite little restaurant on the other side of town. She said
for me not to worry that this place was safe, that she and her husband had
gone there many times. She then told me to just enjoy the evening being
Julie, So I did and it was a great evening, she ordered for me she really
made me feel like a woman. Then I had to go potty and wasn't sure what to
do, so I bent across the table and asked her what I should do. She started
laughing and finally said, well look at you, you are a lady tonight so use
the ladies room; here we will go together, so we did. We got up and went to
the ladies room together just liked real women to. While we were in there
she walked up to me and gave me a huge kiss while rubbing her body up
against mine. She then told me how much I was turning her on. She the just
turned around and started heading out of the ladies room, just left me
standing there catching my breath. I caught up with her pretty quick though
and we then went back to the table to finish out dinner.
Well after dinner we were sitting there having a nice couple glasses of
wine when she said. Julie you look great but you do need to learn a few
things. I said what do you mean? She said well, you just need to learn how
to move like a female, how to walk, sit, talk, move you hands and just in
general act more like a woman./ Well I had to agree with her about
that. She then said, I'll tell you what, if you really want to be like a
true woman that she could and would teach me, that is if I promised her
something... I leaned forward asking, what do you have in mind? I asked
what? She said well, you come over say, next Thursday and surrender
yourself to me, give me complete and total control to do what ever I want
and see fit to and with you, no matter what it may be and let me do this
for 4 days. After you do this I will spend as much time as it takes to turn
you into a real woman, just like you want to be, no one will ever know any
different after I'm though. I then said, well Ok but just what are you
going to do. She laughed and said; well that's the hard part for you. She
the said I know that you like being in control of most things, but in this
case you will not know what's going to happen and you will not have any say
so in it at all. Well I thought for a few moments and asked, so you will
teach me everything about being a woman? She smiled and Oh Yes everything!
So I agreed and asked her what time she wanted me there Thursday. She said
come straight from work, so I said ok. She then leaned over and said great
now lets go home so I can really enjoy you tonight. She then paid the bill
and we left. . On the way back to the house I kept asking her just what it
was that she had in mind for me the next weekend. She said now look, no
mater how much you ask or even beg I'm no going to tell you anything. As
soon as we got back to her place she asked me to sit on the couch, she then
went and got a couple od glasses of coke and brought in a bottle of
Jack. She then said, now look at yourself Julie, see you need to cross your
legs like this, she then showed me how. She said see it's things like that
you need to learn. I agreed with her. She then pored each of us a shot of
Jack and we started drinking. Well it wasn't long before we both were
pretty drunk, me more than her I think, I can't drink much whisky. Pretty
soon she started putting the moves on me. She was kissing me putting her
tong halfway down my throat, nibbling on my ears, running her hands all
over me making me very horny. Well it wasn't long before she was slipping
me out of my panty hose. Sound I did about the same thing you her. She was
really getting hot now. Then I asked, don't you think we should stop,
remember you're the one that said no sex. She then said I said that to Joe
and that's true. I don't want sex with Joe I want it with you Julie. Well I
about died right there. Hear is this beautiful woman telling me she wants
to have sex with me as Julie, this was my wildest fantasy!! So on we
went. She was more aggressive than I was; she finally took me to her bed
room and stated undressing me, everything except my bra and panties. I also
undressed her. I started sucking on one of those beautiful breasts of hers
and felt something warm in my mouth. I pulled away and noticed it looked
like milk. She smiled and said, oh yes I forgot to tell you, I'm still
producing milk from when I had my daughter; I was going to tell you next
weekend. But go ahead and suck on them if you like. Well I did and oh my,
yes I loved the tastes of her milk. Then she got up went over to her
dresser and came back with something. She started kissing on me again and
removed my panties. She then sat up and strapped on this hug didldo. I was
probably 8-9" It looked huge! She then said, now I'm going to fuck my young
lady. She then spread my legs far apart, and started putting lotion some
lotion on her dildo and started fucking me. First with one finger then two
then with her cock, God it hurt so bad as she was pushing that hug thing in
me. Then all of a sudden I kind of felt it go in all the way. I had tears
running down my face it hurt so bad. She then said, oh my you're a virgin
aren't you. I couldn't speak because of the pain but I shook my head
yes. She then smiled and said, my I had no idea. She laid there motionless
for what seamed like a long time. The pain had gotten a little better at
this point.. Then she started moving slowly. Moving in and out, slowly,
then just a little faster. Well pretty soon the pain was replaced by the
most wonderful thing I think I had ever felt. She kept going faster and
faster. It was great. Hear I was with my legs up in the air rally be fucked
by this beautiful woman. Wow I never new it could feel this good. I had
thought about it a few times but never dreamed it would feel this good. My
cock was getting harder and harder, the harder she fucked me the harder my
cock became. It was to long before I shot a load of come like I haven't
since I was in my teens. WOW it felt so good. She then stopped and pulled
her cock out of me, it came out with kind of a pop. She then licked all my
cum off of my belly. WOW I'll never forget that night. I then started
sucking her breast, drinking more of her milk and she guided my hand
towards her pussy. I then started rubbing it and before long she cam and
she cam hard, WOW what a night. We both drifted off to sleep. When I woke
in the morning she was gone. There was a note on the bathroom mirror. It
said, Thank you for last night Julie, I had a wonderful time. I had to go
to work this morning so make yourself at home but I won't be home until
late tonight. Just remember Joe is suppose to be hear Thursday right after
he gets off of work, love Deb. Well I went ahead and took a shower. Picked
up all my things and headed for home, still thinking of how great last
night felt. I know that nobody had ever made me feel like such a woman
before and I loved it. I couldn't wait till next Thursday.
CHAPTER 2
Well Debbie and I only got to talk to each other twice that week, we were
both very busy. I did ask her what she wanted me to bring with me Thursday
she said nothing, That she had everything that I needed. That was a very
busy week for me at work. We had a lot of boiler problems that
week. . Thursday was the day from hell for me at work. I had 2 pipes in the
library that I had to get replace or I would have to work Friday. So I went
in early, around 5:30 in the morning and worked straight through without
taking a lunch. I finally finished around 4:00 that afternoon. I called her
told about my whole day and told her that I was going to go home and take a
shower and eat something and then I`d be over. She said oh no, just come
as you are, she said I'll run a bath for you and feed you, so I said ok and
that I was on my way.
I arrived at her door shortly before 5:00. Just as soon as I walked in she
told me to stop right there and take off everything, told me to get
completely naked. So I did. She then walked me into the kitchen and handed
me a piece of paper and told me to read it and then sign it. So I read it,
this is what it said.
I Joe Reed agree to do anything that Debbie Goldsmith tells me to. I want
her and give her permission to do all of this to and for me. She has
totally and complete control over me and everything that happens to me
until Monday evening. I am making this decision of my own free will. I
looked at her and she said go ahead sign it and we will get started. So I
signed it and she led me into the bath room.
She said now go ahead and take a shower and then come into her bedroom
when your done, I'll be waiting for you there. So I washed myself and then
dried off and walked into her room. I could not believe what I saw.
I saw Debbie next to her bed with a diaper in her hand and a big smile
on her face. As she reached out and grabbed my hand I noticed on her
dresser a bottle of baby powder, and lotion and couple of other bottles of
something. There was a pacifier lying next to another diaper on the
bed. Next to that was what looked like a night gown or something?. She then
said now lay down and I'll tell you what is going on. So I laid down and
she said. From this moment on you will be my baby girl. You will do
everything as a baby girl would and I will treat you just as though you are
my baby daughter. I looked at her with this look and she said; now you
agreed and you even signed a paper, saying that you would let me do
anything that I wanted to, so you have no choice. Now hand me your
dentures, for my daughter is way too young to have teeth yet, so I did. I
remember thinking is this realty happening or what? This couldn't be what
she wanted, or could it?
She then told me to raise up my bottom so she could put a diaper under me,
I felt so embarrassed about this whole thing.. Well she started rubbing
lotion then powder all over me. Then she went and put 2 cloth diapers on me
and pulled up a pair of pink plastic pant over them. She then put a
pacifier in my mouth. She stood there over me smiling and said, now doesn't
my little girl look so cute, she reach around grabbed a camera and took 3
pictures of me laying there in my diaper. She said now if you're a good
girl all weekend I'll give you this film on Monday ok? I took the pacifier
from my mouth and said, well I guess I don't have much of a choice, now do
I? She smiled and sad, no you don't and that is the last words I want to
hear from you. For my baby is way to young to speak, let's see she is only
14 moths old.
So I guess I was to be her baby daughter for the weekend, I thought now
this is strange kind of wired maybe even a little on the sick side but I
realized I really did not have a choice so I better just go along with it
and try to enjoy it as much as I could.
Debbie then put this yellow and white little dress on me, it was so short
you could still see the whole diaper, it looked like something a little
girl would were. She then change my plastic pants saying they didn't go
with my dress. She then put some little white socks on me that had yellow
fringe along the top. She then took another picture. She then told me to
followed her into the living room and to make sure that I crawled because
her baby was to young to walk, just yet. So I did. She sat on the couch and
told me to crawl up next to her that it was time I was fed. She then opened
her blouse, unfastened one of the cups of her bra and pulled me towards her
breast. After she got it into my mouth she said, now be a good little girl
and nurse. So I started sucking her breast drinking her breast milk. It was
kind of sweet but real thin. I liked it though. She told me that was all I
was going to get to eat until I go a little older. She kept moving me from
one breast then to the other. She told me how she had kept using a breast
pump everyday in order to keep her breast [producing milk. She said somehow
it made her feel closer to the daughter that she lost. Well after a little
while at sucking on her and drinking that warm milk I drifted off to sleep,
right there in her arms with her breast in my mouth. I woke up by her
changing my diapers, Somehow I had gotten it all wet. She was talking to me
just like I was a little baby, pinching my nose and tickling my belly, just
really acting like I was her baby. I felt ridicules, I guess she could tell
because all of a sudden she rose up pulling the diaper right out from under
me. She then said fine, if you don't want to play along you don't have to!
Just grab you clothes and leave. I sat up looking right at her. Then she
said, just remember I have those pictures and I'm pretty sure you wouldn't
want them to get around, now would you?. I sat there for a second and then
just laid back down and put my thumb in my mouth. She grinned from ear to
ear. She then raised my bottom up and started putting the diaper back on
me. I thought, ok you want me to be your baby then I will and I started
peeing, I peed right at her, got her on the chin and on her neck. She
immediately covered me with the dipper saying, oh now look what you went
and done, laughing the whole time. But it's ok for I know how babies can't
control them selves sometimes. I think she was enjoying all of this. She
waited a little while, slowly lifter the diaper and asked are you
finished. She the grabbed a dry one and proceed to change me again. Putting
the lotion and powder all over my bottom and private areas, I was beginning
to like that part, it felt good.. I thought to myself, ok, ok I'm just
going to lay back, let her do everything for me and I'm going to let myself
enjoy it. Then all of a sudden I felt something sharp stick me in my leg. I
looked down at her and she was smiling saying. Don't worry it's only
Valium; it will make you enjoy all this much more. Well let me tell you the
room started spinning round and round, she grabbed my head and said now
hang Julie don't pass out on me, come on stay with me. After a moment or
two everything stopped spinning. But man did I ever feel strange, it's kind
of hard to describe. She then said now come on try and follow me to your
room. So I did but let me tell you it was tuff. When I got to her spare
room the fist thing I noticed was it was all pink and yellow with all kinds
of baby things every wear. I remember thinking how cute the room was.
Along one wall was this hug baby bed and it had a small stool sitting in
front og it. She lowered the side of it and told me to crawl in. As she was
raising the side back up she told me how she found this store that sold all
kinds of things for babies my size. She reach down and pulled out what
looked like a night shirt. She slipped it over me head, pulled it down over
me feet and tied it shut. Now my feet were tied up inside this night gown
or whatever it was. She the put the pacifier back in my mouth turned the
light down lower and then sat in a chair next to the bed and started
reading a book to me. I can't remember what she said, I just remember the
sound of her voice and her rubbing my back as I drifted off to sleep.
The next thing I remember was her lifting up my legs and pulling the diaper
out from under me. She said its ok; it was her fault for not putting enough
of them on me. The diaper she pulled out was soaking wet, I remember
thinking how did that get so wet. She then started putting one under me,
then another and then another, pretty soon she had 4 of then under me, she
powdered me and stated pinning them all up. Then she pull some plastic
pants up over them and pulled the night gown off of me and put another one
back one me just like it except it was pink. Then she said, now come over
here to my chair with me Julie, and lay on my lap .So still half asleep I
crawled out and over to her. . She started nursing me again, so I went
along and stated sucking I was kind of hungry anyway. I did like drinking
her milk. Soon I drifter back off to sleep. The next thing I remember was
waking up in this baby bed with the sun shinning into the room. I guess it
to be early morning sometime. I laid there thinking about all that went on
last night. I thought, you know this is kind of fun. Then Debbie came in
rubbing her eyes and yawning, saying, Oh, look my little angel is
awake. She then bent down and kissed me on the forehead while putting my
pacifier back into my mouth. She then said now just wait and mommy will be
right back. I then heard the bathroom door close. I was just laying there
and all of a sudden my butt started burning, the more I thought about it
the more it burnt. I reach down and felt it, I could tell that my diaper
had a load in it. I though, damn what in the hell have I done! Then I
thought, hell this is what she wants me to do. So I laid there a few
minutes and thought, hey start crying like a baby would, she will like
that. So I did, I started crying, my butt kept burning more and more. The
more I cried the more I wanted to cry, before long I found myself crying
uncontrollably, I could not stop myself from crying and my butt hurt so
bad !!! Well after what seamed like forever she came back in say, oh do
you need your mommy? She then untied the night gown from around my feet and
pulled down my plastic pants. She then smiled and said oh, I guess you do
need mommy. You have dirtied your diaper. Let mommy get some clean ones and
we will get you all cleaned up. So that's what she did. I remember how
embarrassed I felt having her clean poop off of my but, god this was very
humiliating, I wasn't sure if I could keep doing this. Then I remember her
looking at me and saying, but my sweaty you have no choice, I wondered, how
did she know what I was thinking? Then I felt that sharp thing in the leg
again. I guess she was giving me another shot. Once again the room started
going round and round and round. She grabbed my head and said no hang on
baby, don't pass out on me. Well just like before everything soon stopped
going around. Boy I'll tell you I felt strange. Kind of like I didn't care
about anything, like I was just an observer and could control nor did I
want to control any of what was going on. Kind of like I was just watching
everything from a distance. That's about the best I can describe it. I
then remember hearing her saying, come on Julie, it's time we get you fed,
aren't you hungry? So Debbie started nursing me once again. I can remember
how hungry I was. I started sucking on here right away. I guess I was
sucking a lot harder than I had before because she kept telling me to slow
down. Well it wasn't long before I had sucked her completely dry. I mean I
could get a drop out of either one of her breast and I felt like I was
starving. I remember the look on her face when she said; oh my poor baby is
still hungry. For some reason that I'm not sure of I just started to cry
and I mean really cry and I couldn't control it. I remember how she pulled
my face up to her neck and hugged me saying, don't worry now, mommy has
more food for you in the kitchen. She then laid me back down and went into
the kitchen. It was long before she came back with 3 jars of baby food. She
sat down in front of me, having me set up on the couch. She then put a bib
on me and started spoon feeding me. I remember how awful they tasted,
especially the green beans. But I was so hungry that I hate every bit of
what she feed me. She then told me what a good girl I was and said, now
don't go anywhere I've got a bottle for you also. She then went into the
kitchen and came back with a baby bottle. She then sat back on the couch
and pulled me up on her lap. She then put the bottle in my mouth. Now let
me tell you this shit was nasty, I mean very nasty. I tried to push it out
of my mouth and she just laughed say, now, now Julie be a good girl and
drink all of your formula, mommy made it just for you. So I did, but god it
was nasty.
As she was bottle feeding me she starting talking. But this time she was
talking to me as an adult. She said, no listen to me. I have a question and
I want to know what you think. I noticed last week how much you enjoyed
being dressed up and treated like a woman. And in getting to know you I
have noticed how you tend to be on the feminine side, what I want to know
is if you would like to become a real and total woman, for ever? If you do
I can make it happen for you. This is what I'd like to she said I'd like to
keep you as my baby for maybe 2-3 months and then start raising you up as a
little girl. Remember a woman doesn't become a woman over night, it's a
process, a learning process. We will would need to get you a lot of
surgeries. The first to be breast implants, the SRS , then plastic
surgery. We would need to start you on hormones right away. I'm sure that
we can turn you into a real woman and a pretty good looking one at that. I
can talk to a few of my doctor friends and I'm sure I can get you on
disability because of your heart. I could then start you on hormones and
really turn you into a real woman.. Just remember women become women by
growing up female. By that I mean they start off being baby girls, like you
are right now, then they turn into little girls then they turn into young
ladies then they become woman. It's a process that takes time and I'm
willing to take you through that process. I t would probably take around 2
years total. What do you think about it?
Well I could believe what I just heard, was this for real or what? Now
remember I have these drugs in me that she had been giving me. I know I've
always wanted to be a girl, ever since I was 12 years old. Now hear is this
woman wanting to act as my mommy and really turn me into a real woman. I
mean this would be for ever!!!
What should I do? HELP !!!!
